The place I thought I couldn’t live without… I’ve sold it. In a few weeks, the Little House and my beautiful land in the Texas Hill Country will belong to someone else. It’s something I never thought I’d do and yet, I’m excited!
Even though I’ve never lived a conventional life, my strong sense of home has always been important to me.
For 30 years I lived behind a locked gate on 22 acres that overlooked the city of San Antonio. Even before I owned it, “the house on the hill” was legendary; a country unto itself. With secret rooms and hidden safes, it was headquarters for a Nazi spy ring during World War II, then a gambling casino where politicians played roulette and had trysts with women who weren’t their wives. It then sat abandoned for years: the ultimate Fixer Upper. It was the perfect backdrop for my life; something even Hollywood and Shonda Rhimes couldn’t have written.
The house on the hill had a personality as strong and well-defined as any human I’ve ever known. So much so, that when I married James, I told him he’d have to carry me out of there in a pine box. A few years later I was ready to say goodbye and so, I sold the infamous house with nary a look back.
Together James and I bought our place in the Hill Country. We created a life full of new hopes and dreams cut short by his death. I’ve now lived here longer without him, than I did with him. My love for James and my strong sense of home made me think I’d be carried out of the Little House in a pine box as well, but this website, 1010ParkPlace, made me realize this home is no longer what I need.
I meet and interview the most wonderful women, and you know what? They all have lives. I don’t have a life! Yes I can step into the whirlwind of New York City and then come back to the middle of nowhere—just me and my dogs—but I need a life! I want to be around people! I want a home where I can invite my neighbors over for wine and get togethers that spill into a backyard, lit with tiny lights, while my favorite music plays in the background.
You know who first got me started thinking about this? Marla Ginsburg! In our 1010ParkPlace interview, Marla said things that gave me pause for thought like, “Make peace with who you are and where you are at this stage of your life.” I’ve always hoped 1010ParkPlace would make a positive difference in someone’s life, but little did I know it would be me, especially in this way! So… Here’s my plan!
I’ve leased a cool apartment in San Antonio—that accepts my furry family—while I build a garden home, surrounded by a greenbelt, in the Texas Hill Country. Somewhere James is saying, “Who are you and what have you done with Brenda?” I haven’t lived in a neighborhood or an apartment since college, but it’s time, plus I’ll still be in the Hill Country I love.
Life is a series of adventures. Some are grand. Some are heartbreaking. I’m going to make this chapter a grand addition! What about you? What are your plans for 2016? What do you need to let go of in order to move forward?