Many of you don’t know this, but I’ve been in hiding. I have tried to keep my personal life quiet and stay hidden while going through a divorce and finding out who the real Kim is and what she really wants in life. For too many years, I have been a people pleaser, doing what everyone else wants me to do from poses on the set; how to dress and wear my hair and make up, to putting my family first and me last.
1010ParkPlace’s tagline—Make Life Count—resonates with me.
My first big life change–after separation from my husband of 21 years–occurred when I left my five bedroom home on five acres across the street from the ocean in Florida. The house was filled with 15 years of memories raising three beautiful sons. I drove away from it all with just my dog and a car full of my possessions, staying with friends and family for three months. I would use this time to ask and beg God to know if I was doing the right thing. All I knew was that I needed to get far away and find healing in the mountains.
I finally arrived in Boulder, Colorado, December 2013. I didn’t know a soul in Boulder, and I spent some pretty snowy nights huddled in my little place, lonely but free. It’s been three years now, and I’ve found wonderful friends here, as well as my old friends around the country who’ve helped me find me. I found in them love and support to help me heal my heart. They accepted me for who I am and gently forced me to make decisions—any decision—instead of saying, “I don’t care. Whatever you want to do is fine with me.”
I’ve always known that some day, I’d move back to New York City. There’s been an unrelenting voice, screaming inside of me, to help other women; to encourage them by telling my story and struggles. I kept my heart open for the right time to leave my healthy Boulder nest and venture back into the world to help transform it and empower others.
Just the other day—in an instant—I heard my inner voice say, “NOW.” I am ready. I am healthy and strong and have more passion and desire than ever to express myself.
No one is going to stop me or mess with my mind and emotions. I am through people pleasing. I know what I want and even though I’m stepping out in faith, with no set place to reside in the city, I have put a date on my move of September 1st. I made a big life decision this week. I’m ready to show my inner strength and be heard.
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I look forward to reading the future posts!
Best of luck to you in this next chapter, Kim! I look forward to following you.
Wow! how courageous, I could not imagine dropping everything and leaving my entire life behind!
gorgeous Kim Alexis, always, always the easiest, and the friendliest model on the shoot. I’m so happy for your journey at long last xoxo Sandy Linter
I am coming Sandy!! Ready to play and work… xoxo
It takes a lot of courage and a lot of faith to do what you’ve done, Kim. It takes a lot of courage to share this with us, but as I told you, I take strength from your journey, and I know other women will as well. xoxox, Brenda
Thank you!
Wishing you happiness and fulfillment.
b
Thank you!!!
Sending much support your way, Kim. I totally totally understand how your homing beacon is sending you back to NYC. It’s the place where my heart is happiest so I completely get that. Make sure and be kind to yourself through the difficulties of your journey. You deserve it. <3
Thanks Paula!
Good for you! Courage got you where you are right now, Faith will carry you where you want to go.
Have fun on the way, and share your story.
XO Donna
You are a courageous woman. I know first-hand how hard it is to leave a bad marriage—it’s an emotional roller coaster. I’m so happy that you’ve discovered your passions. Your voice and experiences will be inspirational to other women. XO Susan http://www.themidlifefashionista.com
Thanks for your support.
Good for you Kim. Onwards and upwards.
Hi Geoffrey, Great to see you here! Hope all is well with you and that you’re having a great summer. Brenda
Thank you for sharing your story, Kim. It is our stories of survival that help others heal and know they are not alone. May you flourish in your new life! I know you will continue to inspire women around the world, though now in a much different and more powerful way.
Many years ago I did the same. Thank goodness I did!!! It was a very difficult and to be honest depressing time in my life. As they say “life’s a journey.” Good for you. What a fine example for your children. Never give up!
Thanks… I hope I am through with all the depression!
Thank you for sharing your life with us. I know that the future holds powerful things for you. I look forward to cheering you on! xo
Thanks!!!
It takes a lot of courage to not only do what you’ve done – but to share your story with others. I hear that unrelenting voice too and I look forward to following your story as you follow your heart. Sending love and best wishes to you! Esther xx
Hey Kim..Congratulations on your BIG LIFE CHANGE..If anyone can make a go of it..it’s you..Best of Luck in NYC my friend…